Rock Bottom

Rock bottom… the lowest possible level. Have any of you been there? I sure have. If you are feeling like your life is at rock bottom right now, or if you have ever reached the life low, I have a quote for you.

“Sometimes it takes hitting rock bottom in order for Jesus to show you He is the rock at the bottom.” -Ryan Meadows

I read this quote in a devotional one morning. It really hit different. It made me realize what God wanted me to learn from my lowest point.

I would say that my lowest point was while I was in treatment when I was sent to a psych ward hospital from my treatment center. I was in a place where I truly did not want to take another breath. I was ready for the trial to be over, and, therefore, I was ready for my life to be over.

I was handcuffed and put in the back of a police car to be sent to the hospital. I remember the cold, heavy handcuffs on my wrists. I remember crying in the back of the police car… just willing for my life to end. I had run out of steam. I was so done fighting the fight. Once in the ER, I spent all night in a chair, waiting to be transferred to another hospital. The next morning, I got onto a stretcher, was put into an ambulance, and made my way to a different hospital that had an open bed. I had nothing. I was stripped of my clothes and was put into a hospital gown. I was all alone. My heart ached more than ever before.

And then I hit rock bottom. The room I was in was already full… so I was on the cold, tile floor, a single sheet to cover my freezing body. No pillow, no mattress, no clothes. My thoughts were darker than they had ever been. I was surrounded by Satan and I felt like there was no way out. And I just cried.

But then I felt inclined to pray. I said, “Lord, I don’t know what to ask for other than the strength to take the next breath. Lord, give me the strength to take the next breath. Lord, give me the strength to take the next breath.” I repeated that over and over again. That was all I knew to say… all I could muster up the strength to say. And so I continued to breathe. One breath at a time.

In that moment, during that time, I did not see any light in the situation. None at all. I wanted to go back in time and change that part of my story. But, now, I wouldn’t change that experience for the world. That memory may still hurt, but it brings me joy to know that the Lord was holding me through it. It brings me joy to know that the Lord had a plan. All I had in that moment was Jesus, and that was enough. Jesus is enough. That’s what I learned that night. Jesus is enough.

“Sometimes it takes hitting rock bottom in order for Jesus to show you He is the rock at the bottom.” -Ryan Meadows

Jesus is my rock. He always has been and always will be. For you too. So, if you lay down tonight and have nothing other than Jesus… know that that IS ENOUGH. He’s got you in His hands. Look to Him.

“Consider it a great joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you experience various trials, because you know that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its full effect, so that you may be mature and complete, lacking nothing.” James 1:2-4

So, my brothers and sisters, consider your trials moments to rejoice in!! Because the Lord WILL use your trials to strengthen you. Because the Lord IS teaching you something beyond your imagination.

What hardship can you rejoice in? How can you look at your pain in a different light?

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