Daughter of the One True King
Hi y’all!! Thank you for visiting my About Me page!! I’m Ella Patterson. I was born in July of 2002 and live in Dallas, Texas. But that is just a little about who I am. What I want to talk about here is what I struggled with and why I am passionate about it… I struggled with an eating disorder, anxiety disorder, and major depressive disorder. These past couple of years of my life have been rough. I’ve been in four psych wards and have spent 18 weeks in residential treatment in Florida and Alabama. But let me back track to the beginning… My identity was always in being a runner. That was just who I was. I strongly believed that everyone just loved me because of my talent… Nothing else. It hurt. So I needed something to fill that void. And, y’all, I did not turn to Jesus Christ. I turned to the eating disorder. Which then led to the development of anxiety and depression. My ED started off in what most people would call a “positive” way. I simply wanted to eat “healthier” and train harder. But bit by bit this plan of mine to become faster and thinner became more and more obsessive… More and more abusive to my body. Before I knew it, I went from disordered eating to an eating disorder. Running was not the only thing contributing to my mental health issues. Things from my past that were deeply rooted within me also caused my life to be thrown off kilter. My life was in the trenches (or so the enemy made me believe). I had no idea what I was doing. Things were out of control. There were so many days I just wanted to give up… To give in to the enemy and his lies. But something kept me going… God and His grace and His overwhelming love. Did I know this at the time? No. But let me tell you something. I’ve been pursuing Christ in my recovery to a healthy and happy life since May 4, 2020. Has it been easy since then? No. Each day is a battle in my mind with the enemy. But the cool thing is… Though the battle rages on, it has already been won. How? Jesus Christ died on the cross to conquer ALL sin and defeated DEATH. He holds victory over the enemy. So, the battles that we face here on earth are real and they hurt, but Jesus Christ has already won the battle for us. And learning this is where I found my hope. I am proud to say that I am in recovery and am finally feeling like I’m getting my life back. It’s been a long and painful journey, but I wouldn’t trade it for the world.
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