Daughter of the One True King
Hi y’all!! Thank you for visiting my About Me page!! I’m Ella Patterson. I’m 19 years old and am attending Baylor University in Waco, Texas. But that is just a little about who I am. What I want to talk about here is what I struggle with and why I am passionate about it… I struggle with an eating disorder, anxiety disorder, and major depressive disorder. These past couple of years of my life have been rough. I’ve been in three psych wards and have spent 14 weeks in residential treatment in Florida. But let me back track to the beginning… My identity was always in being a runner. That was just who I was. I strongly believed that everyone just loved me because of my talent… Nothing else. It hurt. So I needed something to fill that void. And, y’all, I did not turn to Jesus Christ. I turned to an eating disorder. Which then led to the development of anxiety and depression. My ED started off in a “positive” way. I simply wanted to eat “healthier” and train harder. But bit by bit this plan of mine to become faster and thinner became more and more obsessive… More and more abusive to my body. Before I knew it, I had developed a full blown eating disorder. Running was not the only thing contributing to my mental health issues. Things from my past that were deeply rooted within me also caused my life to be thrown off kilter. My life was in the trenches. I had no idea what I was doing. Things were out of control. There were so many days I just wanted to give up… To give in to the enemy and his lies. But something kept me going… God and His grace and overwhelming love. Did I know this at the time? No. But let me tell you something. I’ve been pursuing Christ in my recovery to a healthy and happy life since May 4, 2020. Has it been easy since then? No. Each day is a battle. But the cool thing is… Though the battle rages on, it has already been won. How? Jesus Christ died on the cross to conquer all sin and defeated death. He holds victory over the enemy. So, the battles that we face here on earth are real and they hurt, but Jesus Christ has already won the battle for us. And learning this is where I found my hope. I am proud to say that I am in recovery and am finally feeling like I’m getting my life back. It’s been a long and painful journey, but I wouldn’t trade it for the world.
I’m very passionate about mental health and bringing awareness to it. Y’all!! You are valid!! Always. That doesn’t mean our feelings are always true, but they are valid and you are allowed to feel. And you deserve to be heard. I am here to listen. Reach out. Ask for help. See my Help page to find resources.