Raw & Real & Right From the Heart
“My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.”
2 Corinthians 12:9
How He Heals
Today, after heavily wrestling with God for a good bit of time in a head space that felt dark and lonely, I’ve seen and heard and received a fresh revelation. And not by my own strength, but by eyes and ears and a heart touched by God Himself. On this day, every day up to…
NEDA Week 2022
February 21st – 27th!!! National Eating Disorder Awareness week. I don’t want to talk about the nitty gritty of the disease. We discuss that a lot. What I do want to focus on is HOPE!!! Why focus on all the darkness when you can focus on the light… The only thing that can overcome darkness……
Walking in New Life
Happy New Year, friends!!! Wow, what a year 2021 was. A year of great joy and a year of great hardship. A year of abundance and a year of growth. A year of learning and a year of falling into a deeper love with my Savior. Those of you who know I went through relapse…
Perfection
“Now, most people would not be willing to die for an upright person, though someone might perhaps be willing to die for a person who is especially good. But God showed his great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners.” Romans 5:7-8 If I’m being completely honest,…
Life Update!!
Hi friends!! Life has been crazy busy, but so very sweet! This post is going to consist of a few crucial life milestones and an answer to this question: “Do you still have eating disorder thoughts?” I’ve missed writing and sharing things with y’all. My prayer for this new season of my life, which I…
NEDA Week
This week, February 22-26, 2021, is National Eating Disorder Awareness (NEDA) week. Why should we care to spread awareness? Because there is HOPE that recovery is possible and HELP is available!! People struggling need to hear this, and people who know others that are struggling need to be educated on how to help. Eating disorders…
Saying Goodbye to the Athlete
I’m still learning to love me for me. For who God made me to be. Not me as an athlete. And it’s hard. Here’s the thing… I walked out of treatment knowing that my identity is in Christ. Treatment helped me get my identity back to where it needed to be… My Creator. The King…
New Year, New Me??
I recently posted this on Instagram to welcome in 2021: 1/3/2021 Wise words from my pastor at church this morning: “success” in life is faithfulness to Him, faithfulness to each other, and faithfulness to His mission. 2021… a new year. what are we feeling? are we weeping or rejoicing (Ezra 3:11-13)? I invite you to…
Things We Want You to Know
Things I want other people to know about eating disorders… Eating disorders are not a choice… we did not choose this life/trialEating disorders serve a function that used to protect us from something hardMetaphor: You’re swimming in a river and the rapids start to get intense. You grab a log to hold on to. It…
They Loved Me
These two. My parents. Wow, wow, wow. What special people. What blessings. I seriously could not be more thankful for them and their love and support. I was recently asked what the best thing my parents did for me during the past year was. So I thought I’d share a little about how my parents…
Dear God
“Dear God, “I think I’ll dress up today… just in case you have something special in mind. “Every morning when you push the covers back, you’re ripping the wrapper off a shiny, new present, a day not quite like any other you’ve ever lived before or like any you’ll live again. Somehow, God never gets…
Rock Bottom
Rock bottom… the lowest possible level. Have any of you been there? I sure have. If you are feeling like your life is at rock bottom right now, or if you have ever reached the life low, I have a quote for you. “Sometimes it takes hitting rock bottom in order for Jesus to show…
Christian Warfare
Spiritual warfare. A real thing that we fight every. single. day. Satan has one goal… to bring Christians down in any way he can. Satan is constantly at work, but his schemes WILL come to nothing when we stand against him with the power of our God. God has equipped us to fight these battles.…
Life Journey
My coach loves a good track analogy! The one she shared with me the other day may have changed my life and how I look at every circumstance. There are lanes on every track. Whether that be one lane or nine, it doesn’t matter. And the lane that you are running in is yours… It…
Passing Along a Prayer
Hello all!! I hope everyone has had a good week. It’s Friday! How can you be kind to yourself today after a long and, maybe, hard week? I wanted to pass along this wonderful prayer by Henri Nouwen; it has been a blessing to me as I have struggled to surrender my old self… my…
Denial
When my mental health went downhill, I did NOT think I was struggling… especially with the eating. I thought I was fine. I thought it was normal. I didn’t think I needed help. I didn’t want help. I was in denial. But, oh, did reaching out SAVE. MY. LIFE. A lot of the time, mental…
Eighteen
Today marks 18 years of life for me. Today is a day of lots of reflection on this past year. It has been tough. There has been so much darkness… there were times where I didn’t think I would see 18, and, quite frankly, didn’t care if I saw 18. But I’m oh so glad…
Society and Social Media
Society today has a huge impact on how we view ourselves and our lives. Especially social media. Does anyone else scroll through their feed and feel worse and worse about themselves and their lives as they go? I did. Until I realized this- social media doesn’t display someone’s true day to day life, emotions, circumstances,…
Body Image
To all my people struggling with body image today, I’m right there with you. I’m feeling what you’re feeling. I can relate. Today started off really rough just by looking in the mirror. “I hate myself.” “I’m so fat.” “Why do I look this way?” “Why did God give me this body?” “What can I…
Freedom
See this smile? I haven’t smiled this big in a long time. When you have an eating disorder, anxiety, depression, or any kind of mental health illness, life is debilitating. You just have no energy. Everything is harder. There were days where I couldn’t even muster up enough strength to brush my teeth. That’s just…
Emotional Eating
Emotional eating is scary. For me, this looks like straying away from being so rigid with my meal plan… It means allowing myself to eat more than what my meal plan requires… eating what I want to eat and eating what sounds good even if I’m not necessarily hungry. Emotional eating can be eating comfort…
Vacations Can be Hard
This is my view tonight. Which means vacation. Which, for me, means higher levels of anxiety and discomfort… in my body and emotionally. Does anyone relate to this? Vacations are hard. Especially with an eating disorder. The food is different, you’re out of your routine, you may even have to face body image exposures. In…
To Know You is to Love You
To know you is to love you. Each and every one of you. Why? Because a good God who loves us with an overwhelming love calls us to do this: “Love each other as I have loved you.” John 15:12 So. I love you all. Every single person reading this message. And every single person…
To All My Athletes
To all my athletes out there. Coach/athlete relationships can be so hard to navigate. For me, I had coaches who commented on my body, commented on the food I was eating… Saying things that were NOT appropriate. Such as, “You didn’t run fast enough to earn the right to each cheese.” Or even to the…
If You Struggle…
Raise your hand if you struggle… Yep. I see you, I see you, I see you. And I see me too. Today I’m struggling with shame. I woke up and I just felt the heaviness on my chest. Do you ever feel like your struggles are your fault? Me too. But these are Satan’s lies.…
July 1, 2020
Y’ALL! Here we go. Creating this blog has been such an exciting journey. I can’t wait for the days to come. I hope to post a couple times each week with my story, advice/tools to use, and prayer. Let me pray over y’all right now… Dear Jesus, sweet Jesus, thank you for this opportunity to…
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